EXISTENTIALIST HUMANITARIANISM

‘ there is but one truly serious philosophical problem

and that is suicide ?’

                       Albert Camus

The alarm went off

vibrating another day.

I see a wheelchair

a piss-pot a bed-rail and hope.

I see beyond this room-

this hell of un-adopted kingdom.

I see a car and a life

without this torment.

I reach down into my source

Again and plant my seeds of hope,

This is my forth year of digging my plot

And I’ve seen nothing grow.

I used up all my money planning a future

But god had no plans for me

I had to make my own tea, cook and clean

unable to walk.  God and the system

Let me down and I was left to dig my own hole.

I see the shoots grow

I throw back the covers and greet the day.